Emo Gal...

I seriously do not know what is wrong with me...

Maybe it was the weather, stupid hot & stuffy weather, or was it because of health problem.

Since I came back from Genting Highlands, from the leader's camp, my throat's been uncomfortable.

Or maybe it was the things that I've gone through last year...

A friend asked me how have I've been this two years yesterday, and I find that I can't really recall anything except for the recent depressing happenings in my life. (So, I'm really sorry if I bored him...) I know that there are exciting things that I've been through for the past years. Argk! I think I've got to get my head checked.

I also think I really got a problem...

I sounded so okay when everyone asked about my dad...maybe it was because I don't know how to handle his death. Living in denial and all...

Everytime people send condolenses, I just casually shrugged and said, "Yea...it was ok... We've been preparing for it..." and stuff like that. My parents had separated some years ago... I can live for a fact that my dad no longer live with us. But to know and to have to live for a fact that he is no longer living was just so hard, disregarding him being an irresponsible husband and father.

Sometimes I wonder why I still cry and mourn for him... Personally, I wanted to give him a good smashing for making my sister and I to go through such pain and for betraying mom. But seeing him looking so fragile... I just can't do such a thing. Well, even if he is well and alive...

Mom didn't want anyone to know my dad died. For what reasons... I don't know... so what am I gonna tell people who asked about him? But then again, I've already made my choice. So what if the whole damn world knows?! It's not like they cared!

So sorry to those people who sincerely cared for me if I became reserved. The truth is I just wanted to find a place to truly hide. If possible...I just want to die but I've too much to live for and too much to give up. Everyday I lived as if he has never existed but I can't lie to myself. I wouldn't be here in the first place. I wouldn't have met great friends... Friends in church... Yvonne, Irene, Jenny, and friends I came to know like William (thanks to Adrian), Elaine, Chugan, Liew, and a lot more.

Even though I'm in pain, I know and I had to keep reminding myself that there is a BIG GUY way up there looking out for me lest I strayed away... Yea, the only Father I have left after dad left us.

Til death do us part

"Forgive me... Please forgive me..." A man said, standing near the entrance of a memorial hall.

"Forgive me..." He said to his two daughters now in his arms. Both who were forced to suffer the consequences of the mistake he made in his youth.

It was surely a painful day for him on that day. It was a memorial day for his eldest son who died of cancer.

After a few years, the two girls were reunited with their father. For him, to have a gleams of him, they ventured into a place where they don't belong. To a funeral of a family but yet a stranger.

A family reunion ought to be a joyous occasion, right? But not this.

After a few years without a news from their father, they finally heard of their father's conversion into Christianity. On his death bed. He claimed that he had seen God or rather Jesus and was given a second chance to make things right again.

The three of them embraced with tears flowing down their faces. To the girls it seems like a dream come true, a prayer answered. It was almost like a dream to see their father praising The Most High, they silently pray that this will last because...their father's days are numbered.

Months after months, their father's condition got worse until one fateful day, he finally breathe his last.

Dear friends, you may not have a life of a broken family or maybe yours may be breaking. Remember this that we are forever bounded as a family. Appreciate one another before it's too late. Christians do believe that death is another chapter of life, not the end. But think about those whose and one of their families are not believers in Christ. When death comes they will be eternally separated.

Hello again!!!

Hi, guys!

How r u after Christmas?
I've had a blast on Christmas...

Ok, so as not to get us confused to those who don't know much about me. I'm a Christian.
So, how do we celebrate Christmas, u ask?
We caroled on Christmas Eve then go back to church for countdown!

How was ur Christmas?

The New Gal

Hi everyone,

This is my first posting & in this post I'm gonna talk about...generally me.

Let's see....

My name is Kimberly, I'm Chinese from Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. I'll be turning 22 one month later. My Chinese Zodiac is an Ox, my horoscope is Capricorn (not that I believed any of it, no offense to those who do).

I love to sing, listening to music, watching anime, cartoon, movies & drama series, sleep, that's pretty much it.

I love food but I chooses how they are prepared, rice is not my favourite, cake & chocolate is.

I have a few colours that I like: royal blue, purple, white, pink, and golden, but my favourite is silver.

I may have left out some things so I'll update as soon as possible.