One year has come, a year of struggles (mainly with myself). Not exactly the right word to use...but you get my point. Reflecting on the last year, I sometimes wondered what did I do, what did I achieve, what is it that I am looking for?
I kinda found what I am looking for, and I think I'm gonna make a surprise debuted of myself so don't be surprise if you found out about anything. All my life I have done things people want me to do, things they want me to achieve, well, not anymore. A dull life doesn't really suit me. Get it right people... Being quite is not being dull. Take that!
Anyway, it's January 7 now! Happy Birthday, Ern!
Wednesday, 7 January 2009
Wednesday, 10 December 2008
Business Studies
It's not like I hated business but I knew I was never good at it. So, why the bloody hell am I in here? *Sigh!* Just exactly how did I get myself into this mess... Don't get me wrong, I love my course, but I seriously don't know why am I here at times. I'm just not passionate about business that's all. I hate exams and calculations, how did I get into this? I wonder if I was allowing myself to be pushed around too much. Why don't I have any control over my own life? Life just sucks when you don't get to choose your future!
Friday, 28 November 2008
Blood Donation!
Hi!
I've donated blood for the first time today, and I was sooo.....nervous! The needles are horrifyingly thick! I don't even want to think about it, but apart from it, it's really a pleasent experience actually. I finally learned my blood type. It's an 'A', Yay!
But since it's my first time, I didn't go alone, of course, I'd grab my best mate, my sister, of course! It's actually a very nice experience, despite the needle, but it's not so bad! Maybe another trip 3 months later!
I've donated blood for the first time today, and I was sooo.....nervous! The needles are horrifyingly thick! I don't even want to think about it, but apart from it, it's really a pleasent experience actually. I finally learned my blood type. It's an 'A', Yay!
But since it's my first time, I didn't go alone, of course, I'd grab my best mate, my sister, of course! It's actually a very nice experience, despite the needle, but it's not so bad! Maybe another trip 3 months later!
Monday, 24 November 2008
Ambitions unfulfilled?
Along the journey called 'Life', I find myself wondering if people appreciated me before they find me 'gone'. So tempted even until recently to run and hide away from all I know. Such selfish thoughts! But honestly, can anyone truly say that not once in a lifetime that you feel miserable and abandoned, being laughed at for the fantasies of a young girl's dream, or perhaps a young man's dream, often then not by those closest to you? And I dare say that I'm a young girl. Not a teenager, but should still be young and carefree as well as serious when time comes, and to find big dreams facinating and achievable once a while.
I never pampered myself with fancy dreams, but it is rather practical, though a little far from reach but still achievable. I kept this dreams from most people because it was rather ungodly and very much worldly. But who is to say that I can't achieve things that are not a norm of my cliques, if not my peers.
I have very much find myself nearly resolved to apply actions to my dreams. As I do not know what sort of sacrifices I will have to make, and very much troubled at how others would see me (I meant whether if I'll stumble anyone), I refrained. But I can't keep brooding while I'm young, and regret what could have been in the future. Oh, how I feel like a young woman being scorned at just because I have a profession as a writer back a century ago!
Nicely put the thoughts of a young heart which brought me back to my motto a few years back, something about not regretting the past. The truth is, I still do not know what is in store for me, and wandering aimlessly for a plan for a living, but I do not want to live an ordinary life as the ordinary me. Oh, by what I mean is my working life/environment.
I want to be different! But I have been shunned away by the one and only person whom I can talk to for comfort, for support, for encouragement, and for many other things. Oh, how one can be a stumbling block! Who can a poor girl turn to if not her mother? But I'm not here to talk ill about her, as she is human and this is just one of the times she had made her unwitty remarks and laughed at it. But it did mattered that she can't see the my seriousness and uncertainty in the matter, or she's just blind as at heart as she is physically.
I don't blame her though, might she be womanly, but she isn't at all girly most of the times. I suppose her struggles in her youth caused her to be even more manly, than she already is, than girly. Although, I am not so girly myself, thank heavens for that! Maybe I should just think more about this or maybe just try it out. There's no harm to try, and who knows I may do well, only I feared, pray not, that I should stray from Him!
I never pampered myself with fancy dreams, but it is rather practical, though a little far from reach but still achievable. I kept this dreams from most people because it was rather ungodly and very much worldly. But who is to say that I can't achieve things that are not a norm of my cliques, if not my peers.
I have very much find myself nearly resolved to apply actions to my dreams. As I do not know what sort of sacrifices I will have to make, and very much troubled at how others would see me (I meant whether if I'll stumble anyone), I refrained. But I can't keep brooding while I'm young, and regret what could have been in the future. Oh, how I feel like a young woman being scorned at just because I have a profession as a writer back a century ago!
Nicely put the thoughts of a young heart which brought me back to my motto a few years back, something about not regretting the past. The truth is, I still do not know what is in store for me, and wandering aimlessly for a plan for a living, but I do not want to live an ordinary life as the ordinary me. Oh, by what I mean is my working life/environment.
I want to be different! But I have been shunned away by the one and only person whom I can talk to for comfort, for support, for encouragement, and for many other things. Oh, how one can be a stumbling block! Who can a poor girl turn to if not her mother? But I'm not here to talk ill about her, as she is human and this is just one of the times she had made her unwitty remarks and laughed at it. But it did mattered that she can't see the my seriousness and uncertainty in the matter, or she's just blind as at heart as she is physically.
I don't blame her though, might she be womanly, but she isn't at all girly most of the times. I suppose her struggles in her youth caused her to be even more manly, than she already is, than girly. Although, I am not so girly myself, thank heavens for that! Maybe I should just think more about this or maybe just try it out. There's no harm to try, and who knows I may do well, only I feared, pray not, that I should stray from Him!
Tuesday, 7 October 2008
A Collaboration of C.A.R. & Petra Angels Again!!!
It has been a year since we've perform together, this is gonna be exciting! Like mentioned in my other post, it is in a form of outreach and we'll work hard for this!
Unreserved Love
This is just the lyric for the song item that Amy, Suet Ling and I will be performing. It has a Cantonese version & an English version. Since I don't know read and type Chinese, so here's the English version. I hope the lyrics will touch your heart.
I've always been told love won't survive
Promises will turn into lies
The world just thinks love comes & passes through
It never last pure & true
But I still believe love can last
It's Your unfailing love that gives me rest
You were there when I needed you most
I'll never walk all alone
[CHORUS]
On the cross You died and took away my curse
Love so wondrous no one ever could deserve
Your bleeding hands proved Your love unreserved
You're my greatest joy & treasure on the earth...
Make my life a fragrant offering I pray
Help me, Lord, to serve You truly everyday
Through tears & joy, I'll give You all my praise
Let the whole world know Your love & grace
Isn't it wonderful the lyrics? Especially for those brokenhearted out there, isn't it a comfort? Yikes! I just remembered that I had to think of a narration for the song. For those coming for YP this Sat, enjoy!
Nothing Special, Just Excited!
Well, new semester had started. As expected my first Macro Economics lecturer was boring. But fortunately, I sat at the front rows so I was able to stay awake. But then again, the lecturer is not so bad, of course. Since it's the first lecture, you can say that he's being a bit lenient on us, but I hope I'll be able to stay focused for 14 weeks *xp*. After 2 hours lecture, I dropped the car with my mom in 'Tam Kong' and went home.
I'm a bit excited today. Not only that this Sat I, Amy, & Suet Ling is going to perform a song item entitled "Unreserved Love", but coming up the week after next the C.A.R. & the Petra Angels will be performing for P1 (Program 1)! Well, we've held a meeting just a few hours ago and had a pretty interesting idea on how the performance gonna be. Can't tell you the details now but one thing I can tell you is that, it is gonna be in a form of outreach, so...try not to come alone, okay? The C.A.R. & the Petra Angels will do our best! Fighto - Oh!
I'm a bit excited today. Not only that this Sat I, Amy, & Suet Ling is going to perform a song item entitled "Unreserved Love", but coming up the week after next the C.A.R. & the Petra Angels will be performing for P1 (Program 1)! Well, we've held a meeting just a few hours ago and had a pretty interesting idea on how the performance gonna be. Can't tell you the details now but one thing I can tell you is that, it is gonna be in a form of outreach, so...try not to come alone, okay? The C.A.R. & the Petra Angels will do our best! Fighto - Oh!
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